The Long Play

šŸ“ Not a Pokopia review…A review of my life instead

PokĆ©mon Pokopia. I played it. I broke my no-buy challenge to buy this game…Yeah, I had a no-buy challenge that had been going on for almost seven months. It was going really, really well. Especially since I used to be a notorious game purchaser and non game finisher. I hadn’t bought any games for 7 months, and I was just waiting, looking for that one game that eventually would break the ban…and I guess Pokopia was the one I deemed worthy. So yes, I am aware that I’ve probably put a lot of pressure on Pokopia because of my long streak.

But….and I’m kinda sad to admit this….

I am not a big fan of Pokopia. On the one hand, yes, I like it; it’s charming, it’s cute. I love how it looks; I love the idea of it; I love finding new PokĆ©mon. I understand all the high reviews, all the high praise, that everyone loves it, but for me, it actually makes me stressed. It doesn’t relax me, and I don’t know if that’s just a me problem or if that’s a game problem.

Maybe these types of games are just not for me anymore. I find I almost have to overcome an invisible hump in order to boot up the game. I end up roaming around doing nothing and everything, and when I turn off the game, I never really feel satisfied. I feel like I have an open loop somehow. This might totally be a me problem, where maybe I need to come up with a better plan every time I go to play. But then part of me thinks like I don’t play games to do massive planning projects, I play games to wind down, to be immersed in a world or in a story. I know Pokopia has a story. I just… haven’t finished the story because I keep getting distracted by everything. I am trying to just focus on moving the plot forward, but then I see something out of the corner of my eye shining or ruffling and I can’t help but be like, ā€œOkay, let me just quickly go thereā€ because I feel like if I don’t do it now, it will be gone and I won’t get whatever it is. I know that’s not true. It’s not like the game has told me, ā€œOh if you don’t get that shiny thing right now, you’re never gonna get it again, and you’ve lost out forever.ā€ But there is a sense of fomo, and urgency, and planning and it makes me not find the game very relaxing. It starts to feel like a job for me. I’m writing things down in a notebook in order to organize my storage.

It’s a ā€œme problemā€, I know. Last night I turned it on. It was quite late again; I only play games in the evening after my son has gone to bed. I’m already tired because my son goes to bed late, which is also a ā€œme problemā€. I turned it on, and I had a plan. I was like, ā€œOkay, I’m going to continue the story. I’m going to do the mission in the Rocky Ridges.ā€ After playing for half an hour, I really just got so tired, I was like, ā€œI can’t even focus anymore.ā€ But I hadn’t done anything. All I’d done was walk around the map, picked up random resources here and there because in my brain I think I will probably need these at some later point. I turn off the game and just felt empty, dissatisfied, a bit stressed because I’m like, ā€œOh crap now I didn’t finish what I needed to finish and I’ve wasted another gaming evening.ā€

I understand the high ratings that it got but I think maybe this is just not the type of game for me. Maybe I’m being unfair to it because I was very deep into Dragon Quest. I’ve recently finished Dragon Quest XIs and started Dragon Quest V, and I don’t know. I’ve never been into JRPGs but Dragon Quest hooked me so hard, and the experience that I have with Dragon Quest, even though there are so many things about it that I’m like, ā€œNormally I don’t like grinding for levels and backtracking and talking to every NPC.ā€ Somehow, Dragon Quest makes it feel good and rewarding. I feel like I can open a session of Dragon Quest, play one bit, and then be like, ā€œOkay, this is a good natural stopping point.ā€ Maybe that’s what Pokopia doesn’t really have, a natural stopping point. Maybe that’s what it is. Maybe in my 20s or pre-mom life, that was fine, but now I’m in my 40s, and I’m noticing that I need more closed loops because I’m just tired all the time. And I don’t want to work after my son’s gone to bed. I want to play.


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